how faith perplexed me

Faith perplexed me for almost my teenage life, but it is something that everyone has though few uses for personal growth, too few these days. Even atheists have faith, they place their faith in science, logic and reasoning, they have faith that God does not exist.
Those who know the struggle, comprehend the importance of faith. We need to believe in something, or we will easily give up. If we lose belief in ourselves, faith will give a way to go on and push through the fear and confusion. It really does not matter at all, what you rely on for inspiration or motivation as long as it is known, that it is more powerful than you and will lead you to better choices. First, we need to clear our thoughts. When things are bad, it is absolutely normal to obsess or observe maybe being skeptical about the situation. "What did I do wrong, why do I deserve this". We may feel as though we are being punished for our bad choices and that things can only get unpleasant and conscience-stricken. All of that pessimistic self talk, is a lie and it is created directly from the fears of our wounded Ego. Ego, is arrogant, it has inconvenience letting go of anything, so the element of yielding or capitulate,is humble and shows we accept our place in the universe, Just a very little part of colossal living things. Let go, or be dragged, the choice is always and always ours.
Humans really need hope, faith, belief, in order to fathom the cruelty and darkness of the universe (world). And sadly organized groups win out of the yearn to discover for yourself. Religion was/is a cultural and world positional thing; not even closed to what it has now become